I was reminded again this morning that the Lord allowed my past experiences and the development of my introverted personality for many reasons, most of them unknown to me. But it is becomer clearer and clearer that because I am who I am, Christ is able to make Himself known to me in very personal, intimate ways. My particular faults and weaknesses enable me to tap into the power of Jesus whenever I turn them over to Him. So that I can say with Paul—I glory in my infirmities because when I am weak, then I am strong.
Every negative thought, every anxious moment, is a reminder to me at that exact second that I’m not walking in the Spirit and that I need to let Christ take over. And when I stop and stand still and remember that I’m a child of God and ask Christ to make Himself strong in me, I’m allowing His Spirit to rise up and take over—take authority—and I am strengthened as I stand firm in His love for me and sense His peace returning. I don’t know if God will ever completely take away my insecurities, but until He does, it helps me to know that it’s because of my insecurities and introverted personality that I’m clinging firmly to Him. He helps me walk and live outside my comfort zone and that blesses me and helps me realize just how much He loves me. I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone else out there or not, but it makes a heap of sense to me.